This Thing Called Life by Ki O’Shea

God blessed me with great kiddos. For 18 years I was a mom only to Anthony. I don’t know what I did to deserve both him and Sedi, but I’m thankful.

I don’t like having clothes that are in the basket waiting to be folded. Unfortunately this has been my life for awhile now. Today I took the time to fold everything. Anthony called and asked what was I doing. Uhhhhh… finally folding up clothes and washing clothes from the week. I asked why and his response was I’m going to leave here in an hour and I’ll see you later this afternoon. Because I’m me, I had to ask why are you coming home?? Are you worried about me? His response was, “sorta…”

I guess anyone that cares would probably be concerned. I’m losing my dad, I’m caring for Sedinam alone, dealing with a court litigation, in a PhD program, working full time… and just having to do my day to day things such as; pay bills, feed everyone…

I left Sedi with her caregiver knowing Anthony would be there shortly after I left. I wanted seafood, but I drove around and settled on a pub. I sat at a bar and had the only drink I ever drink; an apple martini. The woman next to me advised me on a new drink and I tried that as well. I could only drink half of it. Dang… I can’t remember the name of it now, but she did say I could get it at Costco. I am sure the bartender will remember when I give him the ingredients.

For the first time since I brought Sedj home, I took a few moments for me. I didn’t think about anything except for relaxing and centering on Ki at that moment.

Of course I left with a meal for Anthony. I walked in the house to find the sweetest thing. Of course Spike greeted me with so much love….

I am truly a blessed mom! Despite it all, Sedi will always have her brother and I.