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Walking in her mom’s shoes…
I don’t want either of my kiddos following in my footsteps. I worked to hard and while hard work is great, I focused so much on trying to avoid doing wrong. Someone asked about my PhD journey recently and suggested I blog about it and I’m not happy with this journey. While I’m growing and… Continue reading
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My Marta Ponti Bag …
Yesterday I have to be honest, my dad might have hurt my feelings … well he put what I already knew in front of me to do better. He said, “girl you getting big..” y’all… I’ve always been small and even before Sedi I thought I was big, but I was in a size 8… Continue reading
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Mommy Snuggles
I love giving my Sedi Bedi kisses and she knows it. She places her head against my lips so I can kiss her. She does that to Anthony too. She sits and kisses all of her stuffed animals. I probably went overboard, but she has most of the Sesame Street crew. Today she did something… Continue reading
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A new journey arises
Pray for me, her,us… Today we tackle learning how to potty… despite her medical complexities, I believe in her. I see her tenacity. I see and feel her strength. I don’t know if I’m strong enough for this journey, but we will do this… one day at a time. Leave me a encouraging comment. I… Continue reading
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Proud mommy moments
The reality is…. Having a g-tube dependent child is exhausting. Last night I cleaned up vomit… again. She had not thrown up in a good little while, but last night … who knows what happened. Just like we don’t eat the same thing every day, all day, I can’t even imagine the difficulty it is… Continue reading
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Reorganizing Your Life
Over the last couple of years I have self diagnosed myself with living in chaos. I’ve been watching a new favorite show of mine on Starz, “Run The World.” I’ve been very critical and judgmental about the actions of the characters and how they have elected to live in chaos and …. That’s me! I… Continue reading
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Dreamers …
I sit still a lot. I listen. I watch. I pray. I hear God speaking to me. There are many times I have heard his voice loud and clear and I still decide to do it my way. I guess it’s human nature, right? We think taking the short cut might get us there faster… Continue reading
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The best kind of conversations…
I decided at the last minute last night that I would get dressed up and go hang out for the night… A question that my soror and I discussed while sitting at the bar (YUP!! I had a drink…) was “Who is this new version of you?” For me that is a pretty tough question… Continue reading
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Emotions
If I can be honest, I took the deepest breath early this morning when I looked at my final grades. I jumped up and down in my mind, but I started shouting in real life. I made it! I survived but most importantly, Sedi is thriving! Y’all, I survived a full time PhD program amongst… Continue reading
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Mommy vacation
Today my girlfriends and I decided to take a real vacation! I shared with them my challenges and they made a plan to be right there with me to take care of Sedi while I actually take time to myself! It will not be anytime soon, but they are going to help me plan because… Continue reading
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Happy Father’s Day
I still remember the day that my water broke with Anthony. I had my bags packed, Mike and I had taken the child birth classes, and we calmly got into the car after I showered. The drive was calming. Mike and I listened to so much music and his red Corolla probably had our favorite… Continue reading
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Forever Peaceful
The last few days have been marvelous! A big part of it is because I finally have a break. I took the week to relax because my body was exhausted. I shared on my Facebook a highlight of what I’ve experienced and how God comes through. I also shared about my babysitter coming to help… Continue reading
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#ButGod
I’m sure I used this title before, but last night my mind wandered after listening to my sermon. Those of you that follow my blog know that I attend virtually Mt. Zion in Nashville, TN. This past weekend I hired a babysitter so I could organize and honestly sleep. Anthony and I are tired and… Continue reading
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Live life..
This weekend was the first event I’ve gone to since COVID-19… since Sedi was born. I’ve promised myself that I would do better with self-caring. I love music, I love being around friends, and this weekend along with the last few weeks have given me life. From seeing Jason and Des and Tikela and others,… Continue reading
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It my 42nd..
I have superseded my exceptions for me. I don’t even think I could have ever imagined my life as it is in this present moment. Y’all, I have to laugh at this so bear with me: I have two ex husbands (one who sent me a text today for my birthday) and a baby daddy… Continue reading
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What lessons have I learned from Sedinam -days late post…
Yesterday the couple that I was asked to speak to experienced a loss. Their baby passed. I listened to the wife who called me first to tell me cry. She said everything that anyone one have said in her shoes. She cried so bad y’all. I listened and repeated myself, “it’s going to be ok.”… Continue reading
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Reminder of what matters -days late post
Today we had a doctors appointment in Charlotte, NC. For 3 1/2 years this was my city. Well, actually one of my cities. I still cannot believe I lived a double life. Law school, college professor. When I stopped to think of all that I’ve cleared from my goal list, y’all, I realized I have… Continue reading
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Running Out of Titles For Posts
Last evening, Sedi, Spike, and I went walking. It was pretty chilly for a May evening, but it’s been rainy all weekend. I noticed plants had fallen in front of a far away neighbors house. I only remembered seeing this neighbor once. I saw her with her two kids (a toddler slightly older than Sedi… Continue reading
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Joyful
Last week I watched my mentor hold it together for her husbands memorial. Five organizations provided him with resolutions. The impact he made in his life was surreal. I’m beyond impressed and always have been by all that he did, all that he touched, and how humble he was. I listened to the many stories… Continue reading
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Perfect Peaceful…
Yesterday a friend sent me a text. It was an IG video and the woman who spoke asked a question. Prior to sharing the question, she shared the background to include, we should ask richer questions to assist with our growth. This made me think of how I was known to many; “she always asks… Continue reading
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Remain True to Self
Too often in relationships, friendships, familyships we escape our true selves. Why? Many of us want to adapt to certain people, situations, etc. Yesterday I received a text from an old colleague. A few days ago she sent me a text out of the blue sharing how I have inspired her, etc. This message stated,… Continue reading
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Happy Mother’s Day
If I can be honest, I have struggled since birthing Sedinam. Initially it was because my body was sore and I felt broken mentally, physically, and mentally. I continued to struggle because I developed this sad sorry for myself. You see, I have been going through a court litigation since September 2021. That was one… Continue reading
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Release Your Feelings
At least three times a week I frequent a fitness center. I’ve been pretty consistent for the last month. I joined in November. I feel so much better when I exercise and always have felt better. I’m trying to factor in running/walking, but I have to pace myself. Anthony is my accountability partner and he… Continue reading
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Truly Embrace it…
About one week ago, I received a text asking if I would call a college classmate to share my story about Sedinam. This particular person that texted me has a similar story. I contemplated responding in the affirmative for a few seconds. I responded asking for the person’s phone number. I spoke with the husband/wife… Continue reading
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Unwinding
How do you unwind after a demanding day? I’be never been this heavy before. I let go of the weight I got to when I was pregnant with Sedi just to pick a lot of it back up. My life has been all about her; doctor appointments, therapy appointments, quality time, and then of course… Continue reading
About Me
I have been afforded the ability to accept the many trials, laughs, tribulations that life throws my way and embrace them as much as possible. I am a mom, a lover of life, and person that reflects too much.