premature babies
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The Sorry AF Baby Daddy
God is working on me. Today as I drove to get Sedi’s bloodwork, I got mad for baby mommas. I called Des and pretty much went off. And I’m not mad for myself, but I really am angry for all the baby mommas with sorry ass men! Screenshot this, send it to an attorney, do… Continue reading
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Be Unbothered
A FB friend reached out to me yesterday. I posted a few photos and videos of Sedinam. I was asked about her g-tube and promised a soror over one month ago that I would make a video. It never happened. It was subconscious. Or maybe it was intentional that I did not do it. I… Continue reading
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Exhaustion /Exhausted
I am thankful. I’m healthy. I am alive. a few weeks ago Sedinam was approved for 40 hours of nurse care. Then we were approved for 50 hours. This does not include the additional aid support. One of her therapist told her nurse, “if we could have parents to do 1/8 of what Kiera does…”… Continue reading
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Self care …
Today I took the day to self care. Well, that was after Sedi’s doctor appointment and going to see my dad. Oh, and after the phone calls I needed to make to ensure she received all of her monthly supplies.. oh and after the call from DMV to update me on my dads handicap placard..… Continue reading
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Love and support
A law clerk and the practicing attorney sent me emails in the past asking me how was I able to make my ends meet if I didn’t have a job. They also told me that child support is not meant to be used by me for anything outside of the child. I’ve always told everyone… Continue reading
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Family
When my cousin hugged me this weekend she said, “Ki-bear… I will always love you.” There were other things she said. We hadn’t talked in years, but I told her that I loved her too. My family was/is my first love. This cousin and I shared so many “firsts.” We stayed on the phone (this… Continue reading
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Love and Grace
This is love and this is grace… He loves her and she loves him so much! Thank God for the grace that He gives us! Thank God for the love He gives us! Thank God for two perfect beings in my life! Continue reading
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Letting go…
I did a thing today. I deleted texts and emails. I’ve done it before, but I held on to some messages. Last year I got rid of papers. I shredded, I even wrote myself a letter and burned it after writing it. In life we allow events and especially people to hurt and prevent us… Continue reading
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The Lotus Flower
The other day, I went to the jewelry store and purchased me a necklace. I’ve learned to celebrate every moment that I “win.” Today I checked my grades and I’ve survived 3 semesters of a PhD program, being a mom to Sedinam, being a mom to Anthony, working as a college professor, working as a… Continue reading
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Things that make you go hmmmmmm
A lot of things perplex me, but I must say that I’m beyond thankful. I watch Sedi laugh and play and her laughter is therapy. Her ability to see the peace and love is healing. As we listen to music throughout the day, I’m grateful for her responses. Her soul is beautiful! Her heart is… Continue reading
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Nostalgia
Watching Sedi and my dad nap put a smile on my face. It seems every visit she falls asleep and I place her in the bed next to my dad. Growing up, I sucked my thumb. I visited my dad every other weekend and every holiday and most of the summer. I was always up… Continue reading
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I’m Dope
As I sit here listening to my new Spotify selection, “I’m Dope” (DMW Edition) by David Michael Wyatt, I’m feeling pretty exhausted, but grateful. I’m feeling pretty proud, but perplexed by life. I’m feeling appreciative, but still uncertain. Some days I do feel as “I’m Dope” while other days, I feel like an overworked woman… Continue reading
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Enjoy this season….
One of my favorite past times is reading. I picked up Jennifer Lewis’ book at the airport and it was hard for me to put it down once I started reading. Life pushes us so far that often we don’t think we can handle these unimaginable tasks while we are going through them. This morning… Continue reading
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Mommy’s Big Girl
Dear Sedi, I’m overtly impressed by you. At 18 months, you are the tiniest thing, but you are so motivated to push yourself. Your drive to learn and new the odds are beyond impressive. Your weekly therapy sessions are helping you conquer the world! The funniest thing is, you are the boss! You let us… Continue reading
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One year ago
Sedinam’s journey is inspiring. Her journey makes you a believer. My journey with her reminds me daily that there is a God. There is no way that I could have done everything without HIM to drop all of the puzzle pieces on my lap. My past life experiences set me up for this exact journey.… Continue reading
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Endurance
I shared awhile back that I ran my first 1/2 marathon a few years ago. The conversation about running came up earlier this week and it reminded of life. I recall the entire race. The first 8 miles, it was very easy for me. I had great conversations. I saw some of the most beautiful… Continue reading
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The voice of women…
In some countries they attempt to silence the women. In some countries, you see women try to silence each other. You find so many Black women are forced to be silenced. Why is that? It saddens me to see this. I had an African woman from a small country in Africa share how she was… Continue reading
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The joys of parenting ..
Her dedication was a blessing!!! We made a trip out of what could have been looked at as a wasteful, frivolous event. Everyone took COVID tests. Some flew, some drove. The delight that people had seeing her for the first time. The joy I had being able to share her with the public. Being a… Continue reading
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#SediStrong
One of the greatest things about being Sedinam’s mom is teaching her about standing up for herself. In many countries women are silenced. In some relationships, women are forced to be silent. In our past women were expected to be silent and accept inequalities. I am surrounded by some of the greatest women. They have… Continue reading
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September is NICU awareness
Today I listened to someone attempt to make Sedinam’s medical issues a non factor. I watch her daily thrive. I am the constant in her life to help her thrive. As I think of both of my children who have special medical issues, I think of one of the dumbest things I heard someone say,… Continue reading
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Thank God for friends!!
I’m just thankful! #MySoror #MyFutureSoror Continue reading
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Today…
It’s a long weekend and I wanted to just sleep in, but of course Sedi wanted to get up so… we have been playing and watching Elmo. It’s hard to relax with a baby but thank God for respite care and the power of words! This journey …. Sweet texts and messy rooms…. Continue reading
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Kiera’s thoughts …
Someone shared they are so happy that I’m still optimistic. Trust me, it hasn’t been easy. But, I will never lose hope in humanity just because God tests me. Today I found out friends had a premature baby and I prayed for them. The dad shared that the journey is so hard, and it took… Continue reading
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Time
With time, we grow. We learn lessons over time. We see changes over time. One year ago Sedi had been discharged from the only home she knew for about two weeks. She was barely 5 ponds and today she is pushing 15 pounds and has thrived so much! #ButGod Continue reading
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#ButGod
Sedi was dedicated Bishop Walker III and then we were blessed to also have Bishop Marvin Sapp pray over here! Continue reading
About Me
I have been afforded the ability to accept the many trials, laughs, tribulations that life throws my way and embrace them as much as possible. I am a mom, a lover of life, and person that reflects too much.